Okay. I have officially reached the point where I feel that I was born to be alone. The only person I ever had a relationship with hurt me so badly in every way possible that my confidence is shaken in relationships. I am not the outgoing type which makes things harder. So now that a 'dream' (one might call it) I've been holding on to forever (which is about the amount of time it takes between me being interested in a person and actually saying anything to them) is, well... I have returned to a singles site I used a year and a half ago.
I have been advised to put myself "out there", but... really... do dating apps work? No wait... that might just make me more depressed, since 120000 people (based on the amount of people who went to shows on the world tour) here are going to tell me they met their one true love on some cellphone thing. I'm sorry - I'm trying to be realistic, but I'm so deflated right now that even sarcasm is struggling to come out -- which is actually an achievement.