Conover, NC, US
I haven't posted anything on here in a long time but I feel the need to get some things out and I can't do it anywhere else so here goes.....I suffer with bouts of depression from time to time and this week has been one of those times. This past year has been a rough one and the new year isn't starting off any easier either. My daughter is in a messy custody battle with her estranged husband and I don't know how that's going to turn out. He took my granddaughter and kept her from us for 3 months. He's in the navy, stationed in Norfolk and we didn't know where he lived so my daughter couldn't go get her. We had to trick him into coming here and take her back. It was the hardest 3 months of our lives, I think. To top it off, she is 6 months pregnant with her "boyfriend's" baby. I despise that piece of crap! And that's an understatment! He has 2 other children that he does nothing for so why would he do anything for this one? (It's a girl, by the way.) I cannot be happy for this coming grandchild for so many reasons. I know I'm not very liked here and that bothers me a lot. I tried to fit in, but I made some very bad mistakes, which I apologized for, but I won't get into that. Everybody is talking about Hanson day, and while I am happy for the ones who are getting to go, I can't help but feel sad that I want to go so bad but I can't. I was hoping for another chance at the Moeys, but it doesn't look like I'm going to get that chance. I'm spilling my guts, people. And probably rambling, also. I know other people have a lot worse problems than I do, but my problems seem gigantic to me. If this sounds self centered, I apologize. I don't mean it that way. I just had to get this out before I exploded. Whether anybody responses or not, thank you for reading this and letting me vent.